Every year as I do this, I read through my blog entries for that year and remember the things that I went through. This entry is going to be real long, so prep yourselves!
I started the year with an entry on 2007 and moving into 2008. I remember feeling really apprehensive about working under a new boss in a new department with a new job scope. I actually enjoyed work. I had interest in what I was doing and my colleagues were great. My boss was really nice. Although I was working from 9am-11pm or even later almost everyday for 2 weeks, I didn't mind. I think I was running on adrenaline then. Then ADEX and Boat Asia came and went. And everything went downhill. After the crazy rush period ended, I let myself go totally. I started doing other things in the office, everything except work. I procrastinated and procrastinated until the very very last minute. I have no idea why I could not get myself to change and be hardworking once more.
Then everybody in the team left. Ariel, Amy, Korice, Keisha.
So by August, I was planning to quit and continue my studies. I think it made matters worse because I was going to work everyday with my last day in mind. After much agony on my and my boss's part, November finally came. I tendered on Nov 14, and started planning my handover and the leave I must clear.
I will miss Michele, Zann and Cynthia. I will miss ADEX and BA. I will miss the convenience of working in Suntec. I will miss the monthly income! I will miss the bomb shelter we call an office.
Right, moving on.
My 2nd entry for 2008 was a short passage written by George Carlin. I have no idea who he is, but I like what he wrote.
Often I wonder what my friends/family live for. What is their purpose in this life? Do they even have one? As a Christian, my life is supposed to be for God. Sometimes I forget it, sometimes I remember and thank Him from my heart that He is my life. But other times, like now, I wonder what exactly am I here for? We read about how this world is just a passing land to us and that eternity is waiting for us. If that is the case, I would really like to go to eternity ASAP. I'm quite sick of this world, frankly speaking.
I want to find the joy in loving Him, in Him again. I want to submerge myself in Him and get to know Him all over again. I want to feel what I feel when I'm singing praises to Him even while I am walking on the streets.
Which brings me to my next subject. '08 was a low for me spiritually. During the first 4 mths of the year, I was so bogged down by work that I had no time at all to think about God and church. I did what was expected of me and that was all. After the busy period ended, I expected myself to insert more time and priority into church, but I didn't. My personal relationship did not improve as well. Then I resigned and got caught up in extreme busy-ness. Even YA Camp didn't really help.
I really liked the YA Camp. Putting a bunch of people together for 3D2N in one place usually works. Things could have been better, like higher attendance. BUT, I'm not gonna complain to God after He has shown us His grace. I'll talk more about it in another entry.
Last year was a year of 21st birthdays for all 1987 babies. I don't know about you but I enjoyed myself with the many gatherings and meetings-up with old friends, especially my Pri sch friends. I really miss them lots and the crazy things we did in the sch. Basically, I miss school!
One highlight this year was the iMac my sis and I bought together with a 50% donation from my mum :D I really like the HUGE screen and its vibrancy and the little space it takes up. Since I've downloaded the Mac versions of several applications, I shan't complain about it. However, I miss playing my Shockwave games and having a shared folder on my MSN.
We formed RCT - Radical Core Team late last year. I think we're progressing so much more over the past 3 months than we did in the two years under me. I seriously hope and pray that we will really make YA alive again. Being the president of YA really drained me in the sense that I got so discouraged that I didn't feel like doing anything.
I'm really happy though, that YA has gotten bigger. Thank God for Larry, Shu Ying, Claris and Amos Tan :)
I have always disliked how some churches aim to have maybe 5000 or 8000 members in their church by a certain deadline. I mean, so now these people are statistics? I thought we are to bring people to the Lord because we love them and we want them to be saved!
I really don't know if it is me or if I'm just a control-freak, but I just don't like how things are discussed between 2 or maybe 3 persons, then the decision is just announced or actioned upon without letting the rest of the team know in advance. Maybe it is because copying the relevant persons in an email has been so ingrained in me, but I don't understand why an email cannot be sent to inform the rest of the team what is happening.
Anyhow the year is over. It's time to move on.
Next year, I would like to........
Learn to play an instrument
Spend at least 30% more time with God and on God
Reach Cynthia's target
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